people that matter. (dedicated to Simone Icough, who probably won't read this anyway)

I don't know what it's like.

Not really.





I don't want to even consider it.

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.
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Imagine finding your soulmate, that person you are meant for.
Then out of the blue, they are snatched from you.

It's one of those things that we see other people go through all the time but don't actually stop to think,

This
could
just
as
easily
happen
to
me.

I try to imagine it.
Loving someone more than I love my closest friends.
Knowing someone who will be there for me forever,
then suddenly they are gone.
Taken by nature.

I would hardly be able to carry on living life.
I'd get out of bed each day reluctantly, only out of routine, looking forward to the end of it so I could go back to sleep.
If someone even suggested, "Move on, it's over".... I can already feel the fury I'd feel.


I admire Simone for the strength she is showing in this tough time.

So some people are taken by God.

Then there are others who don't care enough to stay in your life.

Some people mean so much to you, more than you'd ever admit, more than they could imagine.
Yet it seems that they don't value you the same.
They pack up and leave on you.
They say they'll keep in contact, but of course you're the one chasing them up.

Until one day, that close bond that used to exist,
disintegrates
into
nothingness.

Like there never was a bond there at all.

Like my friend Dramaqueen, I am a person who has a support network whom I trust very much and need near me.

There are people in my life who I am sure I would not be able to carry on existing if they suddenly got taken.
Wow, this is getting very depressing. :D <-- smiley at an inappropriate moment.
But if they left my life out of choice, I guess I would have no choice but to move on, just like they did.

Sometimes I wonder, if I suddenly lost contact with everyone, would people bother to stay in touch?
I'm the person who texts first. Who starts an inbox convo. Who calls your mobile when I want someone to talk to. Who home phones you when I can reach nothing else, though I'm probably dead scared of your parents (and homephoning is always awkward). Who arranges to meet you on a weekend when you say, "We need to catch up!" because I actually want to follow through with it*.


 So yes, just a random entry about attachment and people leaving.

*Well, unless you're an extreme pain hahahaa ;)