Therapy Series 5: When you feel like everything screwed you over at once.

That feeling.

I always set my hopes too high.

I always dream too big.

I always entrust too many people.

I always show too much confidence..

more than what I have.

All that

"hope"

that this time, people won't let me down,

this time, karma's auxins will elongate the other side of the cell and work to benefit me.

that this time, I've fixed things for good,

and sure enough..

that wave creeps up to the shore,

in less that 24 hours, 

things crash.

It feels like everything you worked so hard to build up is destroyed.

You can always tell when you have it too good.

Nature seems to be finally nodding it's head of approval in your direction.

Like that sneaky feeling at the back of your mind that it's too good to be true.

Then it sneaks up behind you and goes,

"HA."

like...

"got ya, b*tch."

Well, Mother Nature,

for just once in my life,

I'd like you to stop proving my own hypothesis correct.

That I don't deserve to be completely happy for more than 24 hours. 

But I know that this won't happen,

coz that's the way the world works.

To every uphill, there is a downhill.

BUT

this also means...

to every downward there is a euphoric moment of 

flying. 

Only for a moment it lasts,

yet we all cling to it desperately 

coz those moments are what get us through life.

So beautiful people,

cling to the goodness in your life,

bear the badness,

and breathe a sigh of relief at everything in between. :)

sorry for the slack contact, i'm just so busy and tired and stressed and sad and happy and anxious and scared... all at the same time. :)

xoxxo