trip to the past... and the future.

Wowww....
Time is flying.
It really scares me sometimes.

It scares me how I can still remember days from kinder and prep... And being in grade two wondering if I would be married at 15. :) LOLL
And when 18 seemed soooo adult... but now it doesn't seem that far away. :S

I remember being in grade 6 at tutor with buttercup, getting seperated because we were talking (oh yes, we were the rebels who didn't pay attention.. Literally ;D) just like it was yesterday.
And in grade 5 when my friend, Mucuseyes told us that her eyes were green because the blue pigment was mixed with snot bahahaa :D
Which reminds me... Mucuseyes is another to add to the 'poster'. And also smartiee, who I have been meaning to add for a long time. :) i will add them later today, when on my comp.

It's weird how the little insignificant memories sometimes are the most prominent.
Like I still clearly remember the first time I properly talked to dramaqueen... It was coincidentally in drama when she was showing our teacher her front cover of her drama book... Covered in home and away cut-outs. Turned out we were both obsessed about home and away ahaha. :)
And when cookie and I were talking about the right age to get married and have a baby in the library LOOL. For sure, she doesn't remember that but I do. Weirdly. :)
Lilwiseone, first memory of you is sitting outside the library on a bench and you were really down because all your primary school friends were in the other class ;( nawww ahaaa.
Haloman, a stupid but still hilarious memory is at the formal, where you signed your awkward turtle on drugs. XD
8kays, my favourite memory is when I called you on your birthday and the birthday package I had sent arrived just on cue and you opened everything while on the phone to me. :) and then I went 250 over my credit, when I think about it ahahaa xD

And I just got sentimental and caught up in memories :S
Anyway... I am turning 16 this year.
And in two years, my future will be entirely in my hands. :S
I remember when two years seemed like foreverrrr.... But now I know it's going to be gone in a flash.
Which makes me think...
I'll be 20 before I know it.
And then 30.
And then 40.
Wowww too far ahead, Izzletays.

I try not to think about the future tooo much... Because with the future also comes... The end. And everything comes to an end unfortunately.
Yes, I am contemplating my death at 15 LOL.
But as teens, we are programmed with that whole 'invincibility' idea.
Like... Let's go out and get drunk.
Let's splatter our faces with makeup.
Let's turn up our music as loud as we want.
Coz it's just what we do. :)
But i also wonder... The decisions I will regret when I get wrinkles... and when I am more deaf than I already am... And when my brain cells are pretty much dead.
Anyway before I die, I want to achieve as much as possible. Coz when I'm looking in the mirror, I don't want to see just memories of cakefacing for parties and the affect it has had on my skin... Or... How I had made reckless decisions that had affected my entire life... Or any of that.


It's okay to take risks but you don't want to be in regret in your dying moments.
I want to die happy, remembering that I have made a difference in the lives of many and done more in my teenage years than go to parties and stalk the boys I like on facebook. ;)

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