Here i am...

It's a full circle, really. Year 12 actually is quite like a full circle.

Remember how we started out on msn?
Well, I guess that was the social media I turned back to this year, I've realised.

I thought I was past this fouette stage,
And then I thought I wasn't.

But I've realised that I am. It was just a simple reminder of what I used to be like, I guess.

I can't discount the fact that I've grown up just because I tripped myself over.

The thing I forced myself to learn in year 10 was... a relationship has to be two people who love each other equally.  Not one desperately chasing after another. I vowed I never would do it again after screwdriver.

There are so many parallels that I've found between YOW and my life.

Like Michael Mompellion... I can easily compare his need for control yet loving and essentially morally oriented stance with someone else I know...

And how he picked up Elinor at the most vulnerable stage of her life and made her love him.... Well, of course the person in question did not "make me" love him, but yeah xP I'm so melodramatic, but my diaries have everything recorded.

Speaking of which, yes, I have been doing a lot of diary reading and reflecting on how much of an idiot I was and how much of an idiot I still am.

Readng back my old diaries, I've realised that my knowledge of Italian has actually gone backwards. Back in the fouette days, I wrote everything down in italian to keep it from prying eyes... now I can't even understand the vocab i used LOL. and i certainly didn't do it with a dictionary next to me. I was so dedicated back then, now I just need to be even more so.

if I don't leave the house now, I'm so screwed. Meeting a friend in the city for some study sesh x)

I have realised that the easiest way to get over getting whipped is to talk to someone else who is equally whipped. :) BUT its like study; study buddies are only good if you use them the correct way and don't get distracted by them.

I practically told this person everything I've been replaying in my head the past few days, and now I have the same perspective I had at the start of the year. :)

Anyway, I am in a neutral mood. And you know how it is; my neutral is still on the pos side. :D
Lol pos - i typed that automatically because I'm so used to writing chem notes.
AAARGGGGH CHEM. kill my life.