a person who leaves you with a lasting change of emotion .

Emotional exhaustion.
Im writing this while im walking to the car while it's fresh in my head.
and ooops i just tripped on someone's foot and lilwiseone's favourite english teacher gave me a funny look. :D
Anyway, it feel like my heart just collapsed against in my ribs in defeat.

Today was a day of... Eye-opening experiences, I guess.

Sometimes when you over-focus on things, you accidentally neglect other parts of your life.

And i feel terrible for that.

My friends are what get me through every day, the people who motivate me to strive for my highest potential.

And if I make anyone ever feel forgotten, I'm so sincerely sorry because
I
Would
Never
Intentionally
Hurt
You.

My insides are kind of shaking just thinking about the complexities of being a teenager in our generation.

Things that make us happy are usually received in a text message coz it's cheaper.
Straightened hair is the definition of beauty.
Pwaaahh stuff true love when you can hook up, no commitment, no expense?

Our generation is corrupt.
I feel myself corrupting along with it,
But it's hard choosing whether to stay behind or not.
So I choose education as first priority.
Coz as my mum reminds me everytime I have friendship problems,
Education will get you where you want to be but your friends will come and go and change and trust whenever they want.

I beg to differ though.
I don't want to think that education is permanent and friendships aren't.
Friendship is dealing with you on your pms days when you are slightly, just slightly taking it out on me. ;)
Friendship is being there for you to bodyguard your rape-like situations. ;)
Friendship is being a shoulder to cry on even when I have no idea why you are crying, coz it hurts me to see you fading away.
Friendship is greeting you with the same acceptance I showed you after you push me out of your life for a long period of time. :)
Friendship is staying up till 1 in the morning just listening to you babble about the same problem you've been battling for nearly a year.
Friendship is fighting the distance and insisting on the consistent part of my life you are.
Friendship is being there, sharing, caring, loving, being a family member and ETC (I learnt at least one thing from today's productive italian lesson ;D)

Friendship is staying up till 4am and still not being out of things to talk.
Friendship is calling your parents and telling them you're spending an extra hour with me just so I'm not waiting alone. ;)
Friendship is those lovely spontaneous texts that you send me, that lift my spirits so much. :)
Friendship is making me laugh, making me cry, making me go nearly crazy with guilt, loving me, giving the most amazing long hugs, pissing me off, passing notes, but ultimately forgiving me for the mass b*tch I was in the past.

So prove to me that all that time I wasted worrying about you all was worth it and you are true friends. Coz I know you are. :) and I'd shrug you off if I didn't think you were worth wasting my time and failing SORRY SCRAPING ;) subjects for. I WOULDN'T CARE AS MUCH AS I DO.

Coz I love you... come una sorella.
<3

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