Midyear exams soooo sooooooon

Since no one (not even I) read my blog anymore, I can be as boring as I like and rant about things that are worrying me.
LIKEEEE.....
There are 58 days till my chemistry midyear exam.. WAAAAHHHH :'(
So unprepared. Waaaah.
The holidays went as fast as i expected them to go really....

tomorrow school starts again. Term 2. The second last time I will ever have to wear a winter uniform again. XD
I really can not wait until university. I am seriously hoping I will get straight into what I want to do; Prosthetics and Orthotics.

I can't actually write anymore. Sorryyyy. Math overload this year has killed my writing skills, I think.

Tomorrow i have an italian sac. Waaaaaaahhh :'(
I feel so clueless in terms of school. I don't really know what is going on in a lot of areas right now.

Anyways it is sometimes good to rant about things.

OH okay, I have a topic.

Mind's eye.

My mind's eye is ALWAYS deceiving me.... -.-
seee, sometimes I might meet someone who I think i like,
Then.... Kind of just as a distraction in my mind,
I seem to put on some sort of imagination goggles.
Like beer goggles, minus the alcohol.
And then, for that week, this person will be the most potential... Person I have ever met.
And i find myself looking forward to seeing them again, so I can talk to them.
Then I finally do seem them again...

They were more refined in my head.
Then I lose interest.
I do this a lot these days. :S

Well, I guess it is better than being desperate and hormonal...
Then sometimes i think i am wayyy too fussy.
Then I applaud myself for being fussy and hope that someone better will come along next time.

Maybe I just hang around people in relationships too often, ;)
Anyways, at the end of the day, other people have taught me that I am definitely not ready for relationships yet anyway...
For one thing, I can still pass as a thirteen year old to scab off a child ticket.
For another thing, I guess I am still mildly the littlest bit touchaphobic.
And also.. Clingy annoys me. XD unless it's good clingy.

Anyways that is probably about all I am going to say for now because I quite literally have mountains of crap to get done. Though I would much rather write to myself here than actually do things.

I can not wait for this time next year. I wonder how long it will take for uni ecstasy to wear off. I wonder if I will ever miss high school. I don't think I will...
Actually now that I think about it, when I think year 7, i think of cookie and dramaqueen. I guess that was a misleading good year.
Year 8 - i think of rotten apples and no friends and loneliness.
Year 9 was another good year. :) i'm actually grateful for my pc teacher's existence... Because he did brighten things that year.
Year 10 was... Workload. Stress. Pre-vce jitters. And the ball, which knocked us off course. Lol how analogous was that. XD
Year 11 was getting the act together for year 12. All i remember is camp and studying like there was no tomorrow.
This year.... I don't know, the focus so far has been on relationships. Relationships shifting, possible vendettas forming... (not by me, of course haha, i think I still love everyone :D)

Speaking of relationships, I still have no one to take to the formal. Yay imaloser.
:D

Now the focus has to shift. I need to concentrate on my studies.
This is the last chance to make it count...
Oh gosh, now I'm quoting hsm.

To be honest, I always pictured in my head, year 12 to be more... Glamorous, dramatic, a sense of final steps. No, instead I get the feel that this is preparation for the worst, that is yet to come. I also thought I would not be single in year 12. ;) but hey, that is a different story, coz on the most part, I am still waiting hahahaaaa.....

Now I should prob go and study.... :) yay!
Xoxxo