One of the challenges about having strong values is when you meet things that don't fit into your system of belief... however for the sake of other people, you have to be able to see their point of view as well.
Sometimes my values are so strong that I have to step back and wonder where on earth I got them from?
The obvious answer is my parents.
Except...
There have been so many times when I've opposed their beliefs....
I guess I'm egotistical in that sense. :S
I go against society.
I go against culture.
I go against my parents.
I seem to think that my conscience is right, regardless of everyone else.
I'm big on empathy.
When I was 10, I made myself a promise that I'd never forget what it felt like to be 10, because I knew back then that there'd come a day when I became 'typical' and started straightening my hair and losing touch with reality coz I'd be caught up in teenage things and living in the moment.
I also promised myself that every year of my life, I'd remember the feelings associated with being that age so I could empathise easier with children and not become one of those adults who acts like they've never been a kid themselves.
o.O
It's actually creepy how mature I was back then, but I promise I'm not making this up, I remember distinctly thinking this. I hoped with all my might that I would try to resist becoming a typical teen however of course, it did happen.
Since then my maturity has greatly reduced. ;)
Anyway, I guess when I was 10, I finally started to understand the world as it truly was. It was after I found out about periods and how babies are made, and then you kind of start to think you know everything there is to know to be able to live life.
I swear 10 year olds have the best perspective.... if they choose to use it.
So yeah, by the time I was 10, I had firm values instilled into me and I was starting to see contradictions in the world. I wanted this to change and back then I believed it could change.
I still think the world could change if we all put in effort to change it.
What am I even talking about? Global warming? How children's innocence is breaking earlier through every generation? How we, as teenagers, get too caught up in impressing others so we lose ourselves? Adults telling us one thing but meaning another?
I guess I'm talking about a bit of all of that.
Some things are valuable.
I have firm values.
1. I am completely straight edge.
2. I believe that you can't hide from karma.
3. I'm disappointed when I fnd that I'm contradicting myself and treating someone a way I wouldn't like to be treated.
4. Even if it is my own parents, it angers me when people's feelings aren't considered.
5. Selfishness can be a curse... except sometimes you have to be selfish so you don't hurt yourself too much. (This part's my brick wall, I guess).
I am sensitive.
I'm definitely sensitive - my own feelings I try to block away sometimes. When it comes to others, I try to be avidly aware of their feelings. Well... I used to try really hard not to stuff up.
I guess I'm putting in a little less effort now that I've gotten comfortable with my friends.
I don't care how assertively you say it, but the biggest lie teenagers tell is:
I don't care what anyone thinks about me.
Because admit it or not, you do.
You dress to impress everyone in the room slightly, so you can fuel your own confidence.
You sometimes laugh at people's lame jokes or don't do anything to stop bullying.
You obsess over your appearance in the mirror.
You feel awkward around adults sometimes.
You make sure there's a hint of style in whatever you wear.
You're scared you will suddenly turn into an outcast if you don't conform a little.
Your personality changes a little when you're around people new and you're unsure of what they will think of you.
You are trying to find your identity in this society.
What was the point of this entry? I don't know, but it's good to be blogging again. :)
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