yeah, my blog famine is officially over.

The thought before was, 

"Finish my holiday homework and you can go on blogger"

I've changed my mind though. :D

Yes, I'm still off msn and if things go according to plan, I will keep my facebook deactivated until the end of year 12. :D

When's the world supposed to end?

I think they said 12/12/12? I THINK. I'm not sure. :D Maybe it's 21/12/12.

I just realised that if the world did end on 12/12/12, I would be in Sydney with my sister so I guess I'd die relatively happy / euphorically overjoyed slightly :D

MAN I think way too far ahead into the future.

Planning things as far forward as I can <-- something I do :)

Like  tonight was planned for homework.

Saturday is chemistry winter school. 

Next month I know I will be doing subject selections probably.

Next year I will be in school completing year 12, still working part-time, doing RAD Intermediate Ballet on thursday nights, working on weekends and also squeezing in an hour of Italian tutoring, two hours of Math, two hours of Chemistry, possibly 2 hours of Specialist and an hour of English per week. It seems like I'll be stressed crazy but keeping myself busy is something I've grown accustomed to. If I don't have planned schedules, I tend to waste away my hours.

Then in 5 years, I kind of know where my life will go. I will be studying Orthotics and Prosthetics at La Trobe  and I will probably realistically lose contact with some close friends, meet new people, make some more friends, have better fashion taste, be more social, be trying to juggle petrol money and social money,

What am I saying? I don't know any of this.

I don't even know what I'll have for breakfast tomorrow, but I'm so assured of what's gonna happen in 5 years. 

I guess it's like faith.

For something to happen, personally I have to have at least some faith in myself.

Telling myself that my life will be better after year 12 is just a way to motivate myself to try hard now.

BUT the promised land calls. ;)

And it's your choice whether or not to answer the call perhaps? ;)

Some people have heard the call (Hahaaaa get the reference? ;D) and chosen to ignore it.

Some people are starting to back down now because it's starting to feel rocky and pfft it's year 11, it doesn't count anyway.

Some people can hear the call and acknowledge how hard it is but still try their best because they know that these next 2 years are the basis of their entire occupational journey.

Guess what type of person I am ;)

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*guessing time is now over and Izzletay is going to tell you*

I am, probably a mix between backing down and trying to keep going. It's like the battle of laziness vs key to the future. :D

Don't let laziness get the better of you is what I'm trying to explain very badly :D