some last minute self-motivation

I remember at one stage before this year started, a friend gave me some wise advice;
"the study habits you implement this year will probably be the ones you have in uni."

And lol, here I am, thinking "yeah, next year I'm going to be dedicated and ace all".
yeah, it's not gonna happen if I don't slave this year.

HOW CAN I POSSIBLY BE BURNT OUT WHEN I'VE DONE NO WORK TO BEGIN WITH?

lilwiseone gave me some wise advice also;
It is possible to learn an entire subject in a week.

Well, of course, that was RAS, but a vce subject is a vce subject.
lol brilliant observation, tizzle -.-

Anyways, the point is,
I'm acting like
"IM GOING TO FAIL."

Well.
my head has been saying that.

When let's be real;
If i work at this rate, I may be able to acquire a C.
however, I know that I don't want a C in Chem.
So I need to work harder.

Also, I keep imagining my life after this year.
I have this monstrous fear that my life will just stop if I fail chem.
Truth is, IT WON'T.
Like, I try to think of the future if I fail chem and I think, "oh my holy ghost, I will have to spend a year working at best and less and then get a diploma into health sciences."

When in reality, if I fail Chem,
at the end of the day, VCE is comprised of 4 subjects? 4 compulsory subjects? I'm pretty sure...
So it will be okay. :)
and the odds are in my favour, seeing as last year I did well in health. :)

DAMMIT I SHOULD HAVE STUCK TO PSYCH -. -
STUPID EGO.

AARRHHGHGHGHGHRRARRRRGGGGHHH.

Also, the night before this one (lol), I performed the very last solo I will ever perform.

When I went on stage, I thought about the fact that I have always wanted to dance onstage with no one watching. Dancing to an empty audience, like Polina Semionova.

And I danced.

So I forgot the steps,
But I improvised.

And yeah. :)

i wouldn't call it eternal happiness, not at all.

Because as soon as that arts concert finished, I was hit with the reality that
it
is
now
time
to
study
for
mid-year exams.
I can't put it off any longer.

And also, if I fail to get an A+ in a practice exam,
i will not be able to buy the Regina Spektor album I want.
^ lol such petty motivation. Well, yes, it motivates me greatly BUT I think there are more important reasons I should keep in mind for wanting to pass chem, true?

Like how I want to be a prosthetist and orthotist.

yep.

A shiver just went down my spine lol.

I need 25 to get into this course.

I need to study.
Starting from now.
I need to foster good study habits which I will be able to think back upon in uni and remember how successful I was at studying. When i think back on health, I remember being dedicated and motivated and doing the subject with eagerness.
That's what I need to start doing with chem. :) Because at the start of the year, chem was my favourite subject by far.

Chem is my favourite subject again. :)