The final update when im in this state.

I nearly got run over today. Very nearly. :/ I need to start to make some changes in my life, starting from today. I have been asked to be banned from AN for now. speaking of which, seeing the people from AN at the stall was a pretty nice part of today. :) people of the internet are pretty damn lovely. Today was a deep learning experience all up. :S I'm sorry. . . . I am going to the formal alone, as I always intended. I think it feels good. I'm not ready for relationships - I'm a free spirit. I wonder if people read this blog. Oh well. Am I searching for the impossible? No, I don't think so. I think I am aiming for anything that's unachievable. I guess that's why I chose a course that requires 75 .... Because I'm afraid to aim higher in case I don't get it. Lol that's not even true however. I chose prosthetics and orthotics because it seemed to call to me. Time for atarcalc. :) I have realised that I am entirely too atar-focused. I have also realised that if I get 30 in english and another subject, and 20 in everything else, I can get am atar of 77.95. Which is enough for my course. so i now I need to focus on doing well - just the way we were always taught. This year is no different at all. I need to refocus. :) Now I'm going to clean my desk then finish my homework.