Just a little contemplation. And leftovers of yesterday's guilt.

Wow it has really been way too long since I blogged.

I think I will just write a brief update - more to clear my own mind than anything.

So I am in year 12. It hasn't really hit me yet. :(

I feel like this blog is too public to say anything anymore... Does that mean I am more self-conscious? I'm not sure.

6 hours of sleep + falling asleep in class with hw done > 8 hours of sleep and not having work to hand in.

3 sacs this week (school assessed coursework).
Not prepared for any.

I don't know what is wrong with me.
All these years, I've been working so hard and suddenly, the only year that it matters I've slacked off.

The problem is that I find myself aiming blindly.
Once again. :(

Now my goal is to get into bachelor of science at Melbourne.... I think.
Or is it? I'm not sure.
I'm not sure of anything, I hate being unsure.

I also hate how I can waste hours and online when this year I can't afford to waste even a second of my time.

Things have to turn around in order to get anywhere in life.

And they will. From today.

*gulp*

In other news, it's cookie's bday soon. Then it is my birthday. Not that it will feel like a birthday because our English oral is the day before. Aaaarrgggghhh.

What else?

I am tired. :(