times change, people change.

NO MATTER HOW MUCH EVERYONE DOESN'T WANT TO ADMIT IT,

everyone changes.

We grow for better or worse,
we become the qualities that we hate in our parents without even realising.
Well.... hopefully not. -.-

We want to rebel,
but at the same time we don't want to go far.
We want to be individual,
but at the same time we are all trying to fit in.
We want to be nice,
but at the same time we will always have those one or two people who simply piss us off. :D
We don't want to be used,
but at the same time we end up using everyone around us to our own advantage.

And it's all an apparent part of growing up.

If this is what growing up is like,
I think Wendy was an idiot. :D She should have gone off with Peter Pan while she had the choice. :)

But it's kinda late to whinge and whine about growing up when I'm 16. Hehehe XD
It's not like I'm a kid anymore.


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Funny, I can't actually remember when I stopped being a kid.
I know it wasn't biological... o.O
And there was no huge mental revelation that I can recall.
When did someone actually go, "You aren't a child anymore"?
But now that I'm 16, suddenly I'm definitely not a kid.

I think I've said this before, but 16 is a lot bigger than 15. Or so it feels. :S

Anyway, speaking of changes,
people have been changing a lot this week. ;)
A certain person has been getting cruder and more annoying and just... I don't know, things have changed. Or I'm getting hypersensitive. :)
Oh no halo, I'm talking about me. :)

I have also decided I hate rebellion,
coz while at the time, it feels good,
afterwards I feel like crap,
like I've disappointed all the people waiting for me to do well in life.
And also excited all the people waiting for me to trip up and stumble.

No more rebellion, no more feeling like a sl*t when I haven't even had a boyfriend, no more thinking about distractions. There comes a time when you realise what your priorities are. There comes a time when you need to be selfish and think about your own education. And I know I haven't fully realised that yet, otherwise I wouldn't be up at 1:13 am in the morning blogging. :)

That was a pretty "everywhere" entry. :)