random thoughts again and a speel on guy/girl friendships.

So here i am, back at my hairdresser, pretending to text yet again hahahaa.

I just cut off 35 centimetres of my hair and now I'm at the hairdresser getting it fixed.

Hmm what else to say?

I can't even remember what I used to blog about here, coz it's been aaaages.

Tad scared...
This guy seems like a lunatic.
I'm hoping he's not reading what i'm texting right now.

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I forgot to finish that entry.

Anyway, time for some deep thinking.

Something i bothering me.

Actually, lies. Everything is bothering me. :)
I'm confused about everything.

One of the things I have been thinking about a lot is ... Love. LOL.

To be honest, now that I'm not kept busy by facebook, I find myself thinking about the future a lot.

There's only one year of school left.
How many of my friends are going to still stay in touch with me after they graduate into melbourne uni?

Speaking of which, i'm also confused about the course I want to do.

Up to the end of year 11, i was assured that no matter how low/high my atar score will end upp being, I am going to do prosthetics and orthotics.

Now, all of a sudden, I'm unsure.

Sometimes I think to myself, 'jeeeez how the hell will I ever get into that course when I do no work? I have no hope.'
And then I start exploring degrees such as biomedical science, which blandly reciprocate my distaste, with lower atar scores in the 70s. Which is still lot, as it means you have to rank above 70 percent of the state. Crap.

Then other times, when I am motivated and sstudying hard, gettiing tutored, getting advice from duxes, I think, 'maybe I could possibly get in the 90s. Perhaps I should aim harder, do the umat, try out for the asian dream'.

The asian dream is studying medicine at monash of course. ;)

Later I talk to some of my freaking genius friends, who kind of imply that they are blindly aiming for medicine for things other than passion. And I guess if I did want to do medicine, it would be more for prestige, alongside being able to help people.

After that cycle of thinking through things, I always settle back thinking, 'prosthetics and orthotics is the career for me'.

What I would love to be would be a psychologist in a hospital. Hey, maybe I should be a clown doctor! ;)

The above thoughts were results of heart-wrenching conversation with atekay's mother.

Then the other thing I've started thinking about is pediatrics. Hahaa i'm such a pedophile, I love kids. Nah but seriously, I do love kids. :) in a non-creepy way.

Anyway, I think I've only explored the health industry but working with people and helping lives of others is the only place I want to go in life.

What does any of this have to do with love?
Absolutely nothing. :)

That part comes in now.
Yesterday a close friend was asking me what I thought about having many friends of the opposite gender.

I'll be completely honest- I used to be one of those girls who secretly agreed that girls hang around with many guys are sl*ts.

But that's changed since I guess I've become more like that hehe ;)

I think your own gender judges you more harshly. So it's easier to talk to people of the opposite gender. :)


And as for girls and guys just being friends, that's definitely possible. Given both parties have self control. ;) and boys will be boys, yes they probably think with their ... Parts ;P but girls are to some extent the same. The difference is that girls think more in terms of, 'could he be a potential boyfriend?' whereas guys think, 'could i bang her?' lLOL. Sorry, little graphic ;)

Anyway, now that I'm at melbourne central, I'm waiting for my friend to turn up. :D

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