exam results ... I'm sensitive and also sincere.

I have this large belief that I must have a purpose in life.
If I didn't have a purpose, what would I have to live for?
So I decided my purpose was to help people in any way I possibly could.

Where was this supposed to go? Now I can't remember hahhaa. Hmm...

Oh yes.
I hate being selfish.
But like... Vce is all about putting yourself first. :S
You're supposed to think (or so i'm told) that it is for the greater good... Selfishness now means helping people for life, etc etc...

Now I' m just so used to that thinking pattern that,
I just think like that without questioning it.

Is that a problem?
I'm not sure.

Next year can't change me as a person, can it?

Well I don't think I have changed that much really.

I'm a little more intolerant perhaps... I am less whittling and sometimes find myself secretly disliking people I can't cope having around... Of course it's not a secret because my dislike for them is about as discreet as... I don't even know what I'm saying.

Anyway, I used to find a way to tolerate everyone, even people who I had a massive personality clash with. Just to keep peace.
Then I'd end up being upset when they didn't make the effort to tolerate me back and I'd end up feeling like a suck-up to someone I didn't even like.

I was reading through a birthday card the other night and something really nice someone wrote about me (alright, it was lilwiseone) was: 'you are one of the most sincere people i know' or words to that effect. And it really touched me. :')

Sincerity is something that comes naturally i guess... Which is why I'm not very good at being two-faced. Or maybe when I am being two-faced, I am good at it but I don't realise because I'm crumbling or fuming inside and think I'm incapable or hiding it.

Oh, times when I'm not sincere are however when I want to avoid hurting feelings of other people.
Or not show that I am hurt. :)

I am quite sensitive. I've been told that before and I accept that as the truth.
However if i wasnt so sensitive, I'd be incapable of being able to 'sense' other people's feelings.
Sensitivity is goood :) in my opinion.

Now I'm just blabbing on about anything and everything hahhaa.

What's this got to with exam results?
Hmm I'm not sure.
But I think it is reasonable to mention that I am happy with my health result and studying did pay off. But no more relieved than when I got back my RAD result, I think.

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